taLKing iS tHe oNLy fiXinG I nEeD

I am okay.. I am not well, but I am not like I was. All the things that fix me are simple things... But avoiding the subject and the name cannot be good for me.. I just know someday it is going to push back. Talking really helps.. I mean, I talked today and I feel good. Or it felt good. I am so quick to forgive and believe like I didn't really go there. Oh well, I am gonna have to stop being crazy. Really, solution to all my problems right there. Have you ever had that moment where you are with your freinds and one leans to grab something from right next to you and you take a breath at the same time and when they sit back again you look at them and it's not the same somehow? I did that today. Is that falling in love? No, no I know what that feels like, not there yet. Just a twinge I suppose. But the moment makes me feel.. like the other will fade. With time I will be better. I am not as shallow as this makes me sound. It's not like I am magically cured and I don't hurt anymore.... this just gives a reason to wake up tomorrow morning. Except I already have one of those too. Maybe I am determined now... I have no idea why tho... No idea .. I have just realized that there are some people out there who know how to say the perfect thing at the perfect time. I had no idea these things were real! I just assumed it was completely make believe. But yes, true. Just now how to make things not as bad and bring things closer into prospective... just good people. Glad to know I still have the best taste in friends around. Do you think being mad is the easiest way to be? Cause I think it takes too much. But it's got to be easier than trying to find love. Indecidion is a bitch. Good friends desever more. Some great love affair. And I just know when they do finall found it, the person that loves them is the most lucky person in the world. Because they have been through hell and are the sweetest individuals I have ever had the pleasure of passing by. Sweet boys... *sigh* you think that tings couldn't get much worse. Hoping that they won't. I could use a little sunshine on this life o' mine. Why is it that the people make us the most miserable are also the ones to make us the happiest just by talking to them... Just imagine talking, and that's all it takes.. Ah love, crazy drives us just mad, also makes us the happiest ever, coincidence? I think that's a negatory. Well, best be heading to bed. Talk to you later? Ten Four big bear.