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I have not posted in a very long time and I guess that it is something i should do. It's not like i don't have anything to say, i have actually done a lot of things. It has been a very good summer. So good it is flying by and is nearly over. I have done none of my summer reading and am counting down the days until all of my friends leave for college. Damn me for making good friends with all of the people who already graduated. Maybe if they hadn't been so damn cool I wouldn't have done it. But unfortunately for me they are terribly interesting and I will miss them more than words can say. Brandon for sure has it worse than me, but it makes no difference. They are dears. I went to try and visit lauren this week. And it failed miserably. She was an extreme bitch and then tried to leae this message on my phone apologizing. I'm very tired of her bullshit apologies and i don't want to forgive her this time. Why do i keep trying when she obviously doesn't want to be friends anymore? I should be able to write her off completely the way that she has done to me... i guess i am just a better person tham her. I don't want to lose a friend. But i don't want to be the only one trying anymore. I want to blame doug because he is an asshole and i blame him for a lot of the problems in her life cause in all honesty he is to blame. But this time it was all her. There was no doug, nothing. It was her being a bitch. And i am tired of it. She gets one more chance. One more... then i can't try... Scott left for Lake Huron on friday and will be gone until tomorrow. I miss him a little, but only a little because he has called my cell phone a lot since he has been gone. I don't think he is having a good tiem because he said so. With him not here, things are pretty much carrying on like they always do. I go see brandon, he's usually with dan , we sit down at pizza king and talk, we go to dairy queen and loiter. No big changes. I could do that forever... unfortuately i won't be able to. But in more exciting news Ben is out of town for two weeks. Why do i know this? I don't know. Not that exciting i guess. Just news. We don't get much of that around here. Just reporting on what i get. He is in New York though... and i am jealous. On thursday before Scott left, we went over to brandons house and watched the shining. Stanely Kubric.. what a director. That and Scott tried to smother me with a pillow. And all i have to say is that he got out of breath and tired and had to rest. From doing this, here act it out, put your arm out and hold it there.... end of action. Hehe. Then again maybe it was brandon who was rolling all over him... another story for another day though. Friday I went with Dan and Brandon and Ryan to Mancinos for lunch. Delicious Veggie delight. I could actually go for another one. This would be the point that most people say yum or another descriptive sound for the tastyness of the food but I really hate it when people do that so i am not going to. And in the future i would like it if none of you other people fo that cause it just makes you sound retarded. And now that i have said that, all of you are going to put it in you posts. Congratualations you are now an asshole. But after Mancinos, we went to orbit and I saw a poster named "Kiss" and for all of you ladies who don't know what this is, it is a picture of two women laying on a bed , an arial view, and it's of two girls kissing. They are wearing white tees and underware. I don't know which one of you girls let this little gem of a secret slip of what we do in our free time and at all of those "sleep" overs but damn you. And how could you not cut me in on those profits... So then we went to Best buy and then i had to work. Brandon and dan visited me on my break and then went elsewhere to find something fun to do. After work, i went to ians house and listened to the two messages that scott left. Which he then called again and talked to everyone at ians. I met hannah and i like her. She is very nice. Pretty funny too. Matt was there and i hadn't seen him in forever. And i can honestly say now that i have spent more time with laurens brother that with her this entire summer. I didn't stay too long. Smoked some hookah and then went home. Things are just off a little now. But i have to get over that. Everyone else has/is. I will too. Just need a little time. Other than that I went and saw March of the Penguins yesterday. Fabulous movie for those who love penguins. I mean it was the best thing ever. I loved it. And i'm pretty sure a ton of other people would have hated it. But thankfully i went with brandon and he appreciated it just as much as i did. Then we went to Dans and Srgt. Foxtrot now has learned how to scale people courtesy of Brandon. Damn that cat is crazy. So yesterday we pretty much ate pizza at the kings and then had some icecream at the queens. It was nice. I haven't talked to brandon that much one on one in a long time. Well... i guess not that long We do kinda talk about the same stuff over and over but i haven't gotten tired of it yet. It does vary a little. Reminiscing on some of the great times we had during spring break and learning some stuff we hadn't even when it happend ten feet away from where we were... hehe. Good times. I think i may have gotten him a little off at the dairy queen though... sometimes you can just never talk about things that happen because its too painful, especailly when the wounds haven't healed yet. All in good time. So now i am just waiting for the next exciting thing to happen. It may be scott coming home. It may be getting a phone call from lauren. It may be showing up on her doorstep on tuesday morning again and not taking no for an answer or bitching her out. It might be listening to the next recorded song for dans album or another night in brandons backyeard. Anything is possible. And everything will happen... in time.