WHat a daY My wEek

So, what the hell... I just always wanted to start off a post like that. Pretty much all.... It's been a pretty crazy week I tell you. Just a lot of time spent thinking (prolly too hard anyway) and many many cups of coffee. Truly that pretty much sums up my week. Friday I went to Brandon's and it was just me and Dan and Brandon and his brother. I honestly didn't mind. I did sit down next to dan and proceed to read everything that he had written in his guitar case while he played a couple of songs. My favorite of all was... something... I seriously can't remember. If I saw the title I could tell you. I also really liked the affair. I don't know, it was the perfect ending and just a beautiful story. Props to you dan, props to you. After a while and ano one coming, Dan and Brandon and I went to Steak n' Shake. It was good convo to say the least. I laughed and smiled and got used to the whole sitting. It just takes some time to warm up and understand other people's humor. So after a good two hours there, went back to Brandon's and I left. I wanted to sleep real bad, ended up having a good friend of mine call me drunk and ask me to come over. I decided against it and rented Harold And Kumar Go To White Castle instead. Watched half of it and went to bed. Saturday was completely uneventful and boring to talk about. The only thing I did was go to work and Katie's graduation party. I was invited to this "crazy party" but I decided that I didn't want to get drunk and stranded somewhere in the white trash part of town so, I went home put in the CD of Iron & Wine and fell into a great slumber. Sunday, hmm.. that would be this day... technically yesterday. I went to work, pulled a double and Heidi called. Now I have missed her greatly and when she asked me if i wanted to do something, a hell yes was in order. So she came over, we caught up and we went to the only place open at eight thirty in this god forsaken town, Steak n' Shake. I got the same waitress actually as the night me and Brandon went at like one. She was still kinda emotionless. So we chatted, I laughed, she laughed we planned some bagging and we headed home. Next I got online and Brandon asked me, you wanna go to steak n' shake? Heidi was over, I was gonna say no, but she just said, "I'm gonna go home and go to sleep" so she left. I toold Brandon to pick me up. I went with dan and him. This would now be technically monday morning when we arrived. Natalie was there and I talked to her for a good fifteen minutes. Dan and Brandon sat down at the booth we bullied our way into and I stood talking to natalie. I could tell her friend was uncomfortable, but honestly, I didn't care. So the waitress comes and asks the boy what they want, i wasn't noticing, same girl i had earlier that night. They yell at me across the steak n' shake, you want anything I say cup of coffee. Unbeknownest to me she says to dan and brandon "i think she was in here earlier tonight" yes, yes i was. when indiana finds something else that can be open 24 hours give me a ring and i'll stop just getting a coffee at steak n' shake. We actually talked to her this time her name was Jamie and she was the best coffee pourer ever!!! Honestly I don't know what was different today about the steak and the shake, but i had so much more fun than the friday we went. Just laughed my ass off. Maybe it had something to do wiht the booth.... maybe the time of day.. it was just better. The cups of coffee the company, it was swell. (Gee golly wiz i said it, swell) I can't really remember what we discussed, but damn.. I laughed... HARD!! Yours is still milky.... fill in the rest, you know you wanna say it. So, I was thereI had a pen I had a napkin (which i will keep cause it looks freakin awesome!!!) I wrote. Why? I don't know. But I rambled and then rhymed and then decided to call it quits. Here it goes, why the hell not? Time that I wrote on a napkin during good conversation. Surrounded in a somewhat endless moment in a place that never feels like it is day or it is night. Kind of like purgatory only with better company. Bright and empty and cold. It seems like a downward spiral where no point is made and endless chatter is my only solice. Coffee flows like water and cream warms my heart. Blame me for making friends, blame me for staying awake. But a bland cup of coffee saves my soul at 12:37 am. Endless people walk in, endless people walk out. And I, remain. Looking around me almost as if I can see the time pass me by. Lost thoughts, lost loves, bitter company left behind. All lost, all up, all tired, never able to sleep. Thoughts keep running to the point of confusion. Not knowing when to yearn, to eat, to stop, to love. Wanting what you can't and doing things you shouldn't. There is a time and a place. But I have no watch and no place to call my own. I have missed opportunities and faces in the night. Which is the only time I can truly feel alive. So why, why am i here? Confused and waining. I am fading in the background, I am looking for the moon. I found it here once but can only find the sunrise now. The blood red morning is my new best friend. It brings me to tears and silences my fears. As damien rice plays over in my mind. I can wander a million miles away and realize it was only in my mind. Sand dunes and footsteps and lost hopes and regrets. I am sitting here writing on a napkin, not alone but so lonely. Good night good morning, I don't know, I can't see. I miss you missing me. I think I'll have another cup thank you and I slowly slip into the unconcious life from whence I came. Crap I know. Looks cool on the napkin though. I swear it was a good night and this really doesn't have anything to do with the people I sipped with. Just some thoughts for thought... Like i don't have enough of those. But you know it's hard to be original. If only...