WiTh my shiRt tUCKeD iN anD mY sHoES UntiED, aNd i toLd yoU nOt to fOLLow Me.
I sat in class today, psychology. I don't really think that much in that class, at least not about the subject. I usually space out, maybe go on a tangent of my own thinkning after sassy mentions some subject that sparks in me. Today, i was just sitting up right in the shiney new desks that i hate. I smiled. I could feel that my face was warm, my eyes were softened, it was almost like a trance. I got this mental image of what i must look like to the rest of class, or at least sassy. I just looked at the sunshine out the window. I don't belong in psychology. I belong in that tangent of my imagination.
I get that feeling that there is a certain pattern to life. Lately, i have become friends with these guys. There are four of them, all in a band together. I became good friends with one of them, and that just kinda brought me into the rest of the group, and now i hang out with all of them, not always when they are all together. Now, my friends have specualtion that a few of them have crushes on me. Nothing would happen, i don't really think of any of them like that. Heidi jokes that i am going to break up the band. I don't want to be the yoko. I don't think that i will. I think it's funny that there are four of them, and... it's just kinda like history is repeating itself with different players.
I've been in such a great mood lately, and i see it reflecting in everything. I don't know if it's just my mind set, but i feel like i have a lot more people around me, talking to me, being friends with me. I feel like i laugh so much more. I am so much more aware of everything. I feel like i am doing better in school, maybe i am just more dedicated. I finally feel like i am connecting to my teachers. Usually it's my english teacher, ha not this year. It's more my calculous teacher, i really like Ms. Wiseman, she's really nice, and i like Mr. Langfeldt, at least he has passion about what he's doing. I think that's what it is. Both of my favorite teachers care, they love what they do. I only pray i can have a passion for my life's work the way they do for theirs.
I can't believe that it is november already. My last year of high school is slipping away from me. I have done so much already and i know that there is a lot more to come, but i know that it's going o go fast. Right after thanksgiving, then are all my concerts, and my trend analysis paper that will push me over the edge into winter break. I'll spend most of my time with dan and brandon when he isn't working. I have a feeling that in that respect, life will be much like it was last year. I don't know why i just think of wet snowy days and hanging out at the Stevensons, or walking into Guitar center... did we ever even do that? Then kick-off and the six weeks is going to take me well into march with recovery included. Then competition starts and finally there is april with the concert in indy and all of our spring concerts in may. Then, june, the final thing, graduation. It will be just like that too... it's going quick.
I have other things i should be doing now. I'll do them in the morning of course. I realized i don't like so much the late hours of the day, like 10, 11 and 12 but i love 3, 4, and 5. I think it's cause anyone can stay up until 12, but who really makes it to 4? I do.
I get that feeling that there is a certain pattern to life. Lately, i have become friends with these guys. There are four of them, all in a band together. I became good friends with one of them, and that just kinda brought me into the rest of the group, and now i hang out with all of them, not always when they are all together. Now, my friends have specualtion that a few of them have crushes on me. Nothing would happen, i don't really think of any of them like that. Heidi jokes that i am going to break up the band. I don't want to be the yoko. I don't think that i will. I think it's funny that there are four of them, and... it's just kinda like history is repeating itself with different players.
I've been in such a great mood lately, and i see it reflecting in everything. I don't know if it's just my mind set, but i feel like i have a lot more people around me, talking to me, being friends with me. I feel like i laugh so much more. I am so much more aware of everything. I feel like i am doing better in school, maybe i am just more dedicated. I finally feel like i am connecting to my teachers. Usually it's my english teacher, ha not this year. It's more my calculous teacher, i really like Ms. Wiseman, she's really nice, and i like Mr. Langfeldt, at least he has passion about what he's doing. I think that's what it is. Both of my favorite teachers care, they love what they do. I only pray i can have a passion for my life's work the way they do for theirs.
I can't believe that it is november already. My last year of high school is slipping away from me. I have done so much already and i know that there is a lot more to come, but i know that it's going o go fast. Right after thanksgiving, then are all my concerts, and my trend analysis paper that will push me over the edge into winter break. I'll spend most of my time with dan and brandon when he isn't working. I have a feeling that in that respect, life will be much like it was last year. I don't know why i just think of wet snowy days and hanging out at the Stevensons, or walking into Guitar center... did we ever even do that? Then kick-off and the six weeks is going to take me well into march with recovery included. Then competition starts and finally there is april with the concert in indy and all of our spring concerts in may. Then, june, the final thing, graduation. It will be just like that too... it's going quick.
I have other things i should be doing now. I'll do them in the morning of course. I realized i don't like so much the late hours of the day, like 10, 11 and 12 but i love 3, 4, and 5. I think it's cause anyone can stay up until 12, but who really makes it to 4? I do.
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