aNd wE'LL BoTH bE sAfE tiL sT. pATriCK's DaY
The last time i published anything was the very beginning of March.
I am very down on myself about that. But in my defense, life got busy. School got hectic. I made it through to the other side and into my junior year, and into a new major. No more ChE, not for me. MSE is where it's gonna be at. So another three years of my life will be spent here at old Purdue. But, I'm not upset, almost relieved. Everything works out for a reason and i think i will be much happier as a result.
Just reading over my last post there has been a lot in my life that has changed. I am not that same sad sack that was writing on here two months ago. Isn't it amazing what a difference even 2 months can make?
Things rolled into motion. I said some things that i probably shouldn't have, pushed for things that i wanted, and helped break a couple successfully in two. Margaret and Brant broke up mid March. Actually on St. Patricks day. Some how he confided in me that he was not happy with her and i pounced on this opportunity. We hung out for a while, just friends, more and more, flirting like crazy. It was really hard for a while, building things up. All of it came to a head at St. Patricks day when i went over to his apartment with Greg, David, and Mike Z. for a little St. Patricks get together. They were the only people i knew in town because we were all back for boilermaker.
That was the night that Brant called Margaret, who i believe was i Florida for Spring break and told her it was over. Roughly 3 or 4 hours later Brant was sneaking into my room through the laundry door as David slept on the fouton in the living room. That was more or less a drunken hook up. Shamefully only a few hours after being single for him.
But we slept together every night during boilermaker that week. And really, all we did was sleep. No sexin thank you.
Few people found out that we were even toying with the idea of being in a relationship that week. Mackenzie found out the Sunday after our BMR wrap up party at our house. I walked out of my bedroom and as she started to tell me something, Brant walked out after me and i saw her eyes get really wide. As soon as he left she exploded! And so began the tumultuous task of defining exactly what it was that was going on between him and me.
There were a lot of questions to be answered, and my fear of comitment was stronger than ever. We agreed to take it slow. No labling this situation. He was not ready for the time commitment of a girlfriend especially after Margaret. I would have put it off for forever.
Margaret was crazy, called him wanting him back. Begged him at one point. She stalked him on facebook and some how figured out that he was dating me by the time my birthday rolled around. Which is crazy because there are still people me and Brant know that still haven't figured it out.
I aksed him why she was so crazy, and he said it was because she really liked him, more than he had ever liked her.
There were some issues that got to us early on, and might have been a bit of a sabotage on my part, but they were things that really did bug me. I can get over Brant having sex with her, which he did. I had figured as much when she had taken the break up so badly. Obviously she had a deep connection to him, he was her first. He had mentioned that he always had this large fear that he was going to get her pregnant, but he had expressed that she was on the pill and they wore condoms. I explained that didn't make any sense why he wasn't constantly scared that he was going to get me pregnant unless he and Margaret had sex and didn't use a condom. And after a long time of denying that one, he finally said yes. First, that was really really stupid esp. because he is the product of unprotected sex and kinda grew up in a broken home because of it. Second, he lied to me, multiple times and i really had an issue with it.
Some how we prevailed and moved past it and have had few incident since.
Finally made things official on facebook almost 2 months ago.
There is so much more than that I am sure, but that is a nice little abridged version of my life with him thus far. Things are good, he and i geniunely care about each other, blah blah blah.
I guess the thing that is different this time is that I am truly happy, which hasn't happend in a long time. The last real boyfriend thing I had was Scott. I mean, there have been others in between, but really Brant has been the first thing I wanted to hold onto. Someone that i can talk to, share common interests with, that kind of couple stuff that I haven't been able to make a connection with.
I love that my freinds like Brant, Mackenzie can make things as akward as she wants for him. It's how i know she approves. She would just ignore him otherwise, or make things really REALLY akward, which she refrains from, mostly. White, well i don't really give a shit, but she keeps trying to get him and steve to be friends, so i think that counts. And Paul... doesn't ignore him. That's all approval from my end.
It's also nice because all of the reamer friends of Brant that i have met have expressed their approval of me, and the other friends, his robot friends, i was already friends with to begin with so now we are just all better friends.
There is so much more that has happend in this two months, but i don't have the time to go back and get into all of it. I hopefully will sometime soon.
I am working out now more, and by more i mean at all. I have gone every week day since school started which has been five days straight of working out and i ran twice the week before that and went to the co-rec once with white's id when she punked out on kenzie.
I feel better, and it has worked so nicely into my daily routine. Wake up and go to work at 6:30, go to class at 8:30, come home and eat breakfast, take a nap, wake up and do some FIRST work, eat lunch, go to class, come home and dick around for about a half an hour to an hour and then go to the co-rec because parking is free after 3. I come home, shower and do more work, talk to Brant, eat dinner, finish my homework and then talk to Brant before i go to sleep.
I'm really happy with it. Maybe i would like to lose 10 pounds. I don't really care though. Mostly it fills my time, which is a good thing. Weeks seem to get longer and longer. Plus the co-rec is a tow hour period when i am in a highly airconditioned building which in the current heat has been a nice relief.
I think the last thing would prolly be that Brant is going to meet my ENTIRE family at my nephew's first birthday this weekend. I don't really know how that is going to blow over, hopefully well. I would really like it if my family liked Brant. They know some about him, mostly that he drives the boilermaker special, is in robotics with me, and that he is my boyfriend. My family already thinks he must be a glutton for punishment if he is dating me. I think they'll like him. I hope so. And i think, even though he says that he doesn't care if my fam likes him, that he really does and is trying to figure out a way to leave a good impression on them.
Well, it's about three, and i am going to head to the co-rec. Can't lose my schedule now. I finally got something rolling.
I am very down on myself about that. But in my defense, life got busy. School got hectic. I made it through to the other side and into my junior year, and into a new major. No more ChE, not for me. MSE is where it's gonna be at. So another three years of my life will be spent here at old Purdue. But, I'm not upset, almost relieved. Everything works out for a reason and i think i will be much happier as a result.
Just reading over my last post there has been a lot in my life that has changed. I am not that same sad sack that was writing on here two months ago. Isn't it amazing what a difference even 2 months can make?
Things rolled into motion. I said some things that i probably shouldn't have, pushed for things that i wanted, and helped break a couple successfully in two. Margaret and Brant broke up mid March. Actually on St. Patricks day. Some how he confided in me that he was not happy with her and i pounced on this opportunity. We hung out for a while, just friends, more and more, flirting like crazy. It was really hard for a while, building things up. All of it came to a head at St. Patricks day when i went over to his apartment with Greg, David, and Mike Z. for a little St. Patricks get together. They were the only people i knew in town because we were all back for boilermaker.
That was the night that Brant called Margaret, who i believe was i Florida for Spring break and told her it was over. Roughly 3 or 4 hours later Brant was sneaking into my room through the laundry door as David slept on the fouton in the living room. That was more or less a drunken hook up. Shamefully only a few hours after being single for him.
But we slept together every night during boilermaker that week. And really, all we did was sleep. No sexin thank you.
Few people found out that we were even toying with the idea of being in a relationship that week. Mackenzie found out the Sunday after our BMR wrap up party at our house. I walked out of my bedroom and as she started to tell me something, Brant walked out after me and i saw her eyes get really wide. As soon as he left she exploded! And so began the tumultuous task of defining exactly what it was that was going on between him and me.
There were a lot of questions to be answered, and my fear of comitment was stronger than ever. We agreed to take it slow. No labling this situation. He was not ready for the time commitment of a girlfriend especially after Margaret. I would have put it off for forever.
Margaret was crazy, called him wanting him back. Begged him at one point. She stalked him on facebook and some how figured out that he was dating me by the time my birthday rolled around. Which is crazy because there are still people me and Brant know that still haven't figured it out.
I aksed him why she was so crazy, and he said it was because she really liked him, more than he had ever liked her.
There were some issues that got to us early on, and might have been a bit of a sabotage on my part, but they were things that really did bug me. I can get over Brant having sex with her, which he did. I had figured as much when she had taken the break up so badly. Obviously she had a deep connection to him, he was her first. He had mentioned that he always had this large fear that he was going to get her pregnant, but he had expressed that she was on the pill and they wore condoms. I explained that didn't make any sense why he wasn't constantly scared that he was going to get me pregnant unless he and Margaret had sex and didn't use a condom. And after a long time of denying that one, he finally said yes. First, that was really really stupid esp. because he is the product of unprotected sex and kinda grew up in a broken home because of it. Second, he lied to me, multiple times and i really had an issue with it.
Some how we prevailed and moved past it and have had few incident since.
Finally made things official on facebook almost 2 months ago.
There is so much more than that I am sure, but that is a nice little abridged version of my life with him thus far. Things are good, he and i geniunely care about each other, blah blah blah.
I guess the thing that is different this time is that I am truly happy, which hasn't happend in a long time. The last real boyfriend thing I had was Scott. I mean, there have been others in between, but really Brant has been the first thing I wanted to hold onto. Someone that i can talk to, share common interests with, that kind of couple stuff that I haven't been able to make a connection with.
I love that my freinds like Brant, Mackenzie can make things as akward as she wants for him. It's how i know she approves. She would just ignore him otherwise, or make things really REALLY akward, which she refrains from, mostly. White, well i don't really give a shit, but she keeps trying to get him and steve to be friends, so i think that counts. And Paul... doesn't ignore him. That's all approval from my end.
It's also nice because all of the reamer friends of Brant that i have met have expressed their approval of me, and the other friends, his robot friends, i was already friends with to begin with so now we are just all better friends.
There is so much more that has happend in this two months, but i don't have the time to go back and get into all of it. I hopefully will sometime soon.
I am working out now more, and by more i mean at all. I have gone every week day since school started which has been five days straight of working out and i ran twice the week before that and went to the co-rec once with white's id when she punked out on kenzie.
I feel better, and it has worked so nicely into my daily routine. Wake up and go to work at 6:30, go to class at 8:30, come home and eat breakfast, take a nap, wake up and do some FIRST work, eat lunch, go to class, come home and dick around for about a half an hour to an hour and then go to the co-rec because parking is free after 3. I come home, shower and do more work, talk to Brant, eat dinner, finish my homework and then talk to Brant before i go to sleep.
I'm really happy with it. Maybe i would like to lose 10 pounds. I don't really care though. Mostly it fills my time, which is a good thing. Weeks seem to get longer and longer. Plus the co-rec is a tow hour period when i am in a highly airconditioned building which in the current heat has been a nice relief.
I think the last thing would prolly be that Brant is going to meet my ENTIRE family at my nephew's first birthday this weekend. I don't really know how that is going to blow over, hopefully well. I would really like it if my family liked Brant. They know some about him, mostly that he drives the boilermaker special, is in robotics with me, and that he is my boyfriend. My family already thinks he must be a glutton for punishment if he is dating me. I think they'll like him. I hope so. And i think, even though he says that he doesn't care if my fam likes him, that he really does and is trying to figure out a way to leave a good impression on them.
Well, it's about three, and i am going to head to the co-rec. Can't lose my schedule now. I finally got something rolling.
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