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I don't have a lot of time... that makes me sounds like i'm dying. I'm not really. It's just that i have to leave soon. That's my life. Small moments where i sit down and the world speeds up then i move and run with the spinning out of control world.
Sounds hectic. And it is.
Not much has happend. I went and saw Ben Folds. OH! so very good. I really enjoy him, and playing live for me was something that i will never forget. He's so talented and i do love his music. I don't care how old i'll get, i'll always enjoy it. I hope i look as good as he does when i'm forty. And i can only hope i'll be half as talented as he is.
It feels like so much is going on and there really isn't anything. I work all the time. I'm doing better in school. At least, i am doing what i expect of myself now. After a first round of subpar exam scores, except of course for my chemistry, i am doing better. All of my homework averages have inclined for all of my courses. I got an 82 on a calc exam and that is without the curve with about an average of a 62. Things are looking up... fingers crossed that's how things actually work out to be.
I feel like when i am doing well i have control of my own destiny. I think that's why i dislike doing badly in school. I should be able to control one thing in my life... that thing being grades. That and i know that i want to do my best. I want to be better than average. Hopefully math will be my only C... and even then i know i can still get a B. I will get a B.
I had a dream a few nights ago that me and Scott were friends. We met up and talked and talked... and it was the best time i had in a while. Everything made sense. It was just so easy... and i know that nothing is really like that in real life.
I wonder what dan is up to. I wonder what brandon is up to. I don't have time to wonder.
I'm going back to West Lafayette soon. My spring break officially started today and i'll be going home tomorrow. I'm not happy about it. I miss my friends. I want to stay, but that's just not the way things are.
I kinda miss matt right now. I didn't get to see him before break and lord only knows when i will see him again. With my schedule and... well with all the shit i have to do, i don't know when i'll be free... to say the least it might be a while. I hope not that long.
I think i need to start my day. After the coma i had last night, it might be a good idea to go and do something.