mY miND iS rAciNg as iT aLwaYs wiLL, mY hAnd iS tiReD mY hEaRtAcHes i'M hALf a WoRLd AwAy heRE
So can you believe it? I'm back again. Let's see... let's see.. what all is new?
The boilermaker regional just wrapped. I'm tired as hell and it's been one of the carziest weekends ever.. i am thuroughly exhausted. But, on the plus side, my life never gets less interesting.
First, i feel like i should do a recap. Let's start from the boilermaker last year. Cause since even then, it's been holy hell of a time. I went through a dry spell that began months prior to that. Then when i got here, you know to college, about two months in, i made out with a stranger... well not completely a stranger his name was Walter and he goes to marion. That's pretty much all that i do know... Then i found out that scott still liked me. And we kissed, that was nice, it was weird. I think i fell out of love with him. And that is the saddest part. That and i lost one of my really great friends who i had a lot in common with. We ended our friendship i decided that was a poor choice, and what happend? we tryed being friends for about a week and a half. He told me he had a girlfriend, then he got pissed off that i knew what his ex-girlfriend looked like when i saw her on campus, completely flipped a bitch and we got in a stupid text fight and haven't talked since. On top of that, it's the moment i lost touch with brandon cause for one last time i realize that i cannot trust him with anything that i tell him. Then let's see... umm i met matt finally. Talked to him for months since october, and then made out with him twice. Thought maybe we might date... and i haven't closed that door completely but i don't know. I feel like we are compatible but he's not such a great kisser. Are we compatible physically? I'm not sure. And i don't know that i want to spend the time right now trying to figure it out. So this weekend, what happend? My VP of the student organization i was flirting with me like crazy since all of it started, there was a field attendant who gave me the eye and too much attention, and zach, another guy that worked concessions with me and flirted like a mad man and took me home yesterday. So, if you're asking me if i am currently stringing along three guys at once, i want to say no. I am not mutually exclusive with any and i have made no choices as of late.
I like how i have had this feeling that brant has been flirting with me since i joined the program and now i am absolutely positive. In a matter of 12 hours, he tryed to hang out with me at concessions and compliment me whenever i could, friended me on facebook, and then imed me moments later where we proceeded to talk for at least three or four hours. He asked me just about everything. What i did in highschool, what i do now, what i like to do on weekends, and i feel like i might like him. He's definately my type. Really taller than me, big, and not really big just, bigger than me which is perhaps my favorite thing of all. Plus, it is him. He's cute and genuine and two years older, somehow the perfect age....
It has been the craziest year, have you seen all that?
Anywho, Boilermaker was fun. I got see the team, they got picked for finals and that was great. I made $ 2,672 for the organization and i feel like i have at least nine times as many friend here than i did before. And the best thing is that none of them went to penn. I worked with brauer which was hilarity, zach, evan, josh, brant, and pat which all was just fun. I liked it. I now have two more friend on facebook, and an invitation to go out tonight and get completely shwasted and make perhaps a bad decision or two.
Life is better than it was. It makes me feel excited and the idea that i don't know what's going to happen is probably that feeling in my stomach.
It's hard to rehash the saddness that is my last year, but the excitement that is happening right now is great. Now if i can only get through the last of this semester with good grades and perhaps a lil somethin somethin on the end.
The boilermaker regional just wrapped. I'm tired as hell and it's been one of the carziest weekends ever.. i am thuroughly exhausted. But, on the plus side, my life never gets less interesting.
First, i feel like i should do a recap. Let's start from the boilermaker last year. Cause since even then, it's been holy hell of a time. I went through a dry spell that began months prior to that. Then when i got here, you know to college, about two months in, i made out with a stranger... well not completely a stranger his name was Walter and he goes to marion. That's pretty much all that i do know... Then i found out that scott still liked me. And we kissed, that was nice, it was weird. I think i fell out of love with him. And that is the saddest part. That and i lost one of my really great friends who i had a lot in common with. We ended our friendship i decided that was a poor choice, and what happend? we tryed being friends for about a week and a half. He told me he had a girlfriend, then he got pissed off that i knew what his ex-girlfriend looked like when i saw her on campus, completely flipped a bitch and we got in a stupid text fight and haven't talked since. On top of that, it's the moment i lost touch with brandon cause for one last time i realize that i cannot trust him with anything that i tell him. Then let's see... umm i met matt finally. Talked to him for months since october, and then made out with him twice. Thought maybe we might date... and i haven't closed that door completely but i don't know. I feel like we are compatible but he's not such a great kisser. Are we compatible physically? I'm not sure. And i don't know that i want to spend the time right now trying to figure it out. So this weekend, what happend? My VP of the student organization i was flirting with me like crazy since all of it started, there was a field attendant who gave me the eye and too much attention, and zach, another guy that worked concessions with me and flirted like a mad man and took me home yesterday. So, if you're asking me if i am currently stringing along three guys at once, i want to say no. I am not mutually exclusive with any and i have made no choices as of late.
I like how i have had this feeling that brant has been flirting with me since i joined the program and now i am absolutely positive. In a matter of 12 hours, he tryed to hang out with me at concessions and compliment me whenever i could, friended me on facebook, and then imed me moments later where we proceeded to talk for at least three or four hours. He asked me just about everything. What i did in highschool, what i do now, what i like to do on weekends, and i feel like i might like him. He's definately my type. Really taller than me, big, and not really big just, bigger than me which is perhaps my favorite thing of all. Plus, it is him. He's cute and genuine and two years older, somehow the perfect age....
It has been the craziest year, have you seen all that?
Anywho, Boilermaker was fun. I got see the team, they got picked for finals and that was great. I made $ 2,672 for the organization and i feel like i have at least nine times as many friend here than i did before. And the best thing is that none of them went to penn. I worked with brauer which was hilarity, zach, evan, josh, brant, and pat which all was just fun. I liked it. I now have two more friend on facebook, and an invitation to go out tonight and get completely shwasted and make perhaps a bad decision or two.
Life is better than it was. It makes me feel excited and the idea that i don't know what's going to happen is probably that feeling in my stomach.
It's hard to rehash the saddness that is my last year, but the excitement that is happening right now is great. Now if i can only get through the last of this semester with good grades and perhaps a lil somethin somethin on the end.
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