AnDy, yoU'Re a STaR

I can't help the way that I am, that's just me. So, I am really bored and I tend to ramble. Don't you just hate it when people do that? It seems completely pointless. I really hate it when people are like, yea so I'm bored. I don't f-ing care. Now I am also bored because you have just wasted my time telling me that you are bored. P.S. I am a raving hypocrite. Have you ever heard of two people who are dating and seem to be terribly perfect for eachother having a conversation and afterward having no choice but to break up? Like there is no way after everything they've said to keep going in a relationship. I hadn't before today. I am now really worried about this. Because I realize how real it it. Just one conversation away from not anymore. That is a scary thought. Choose your words wisely my friends. Prom was this weekend. I am unchanged about this, but it seems like all of my friends went and told me that they had an awesome time. It's just that none will go into detail about the evening. Like oh it was so much freakin fun, but I'm not gonna tell you why. That is the best attitude I have ever heard. I dont really think that prom is all that big of an idea. I mean, it's not really different from snowball except that it's at the century center and it had a 5hity restriction on it. I think it is terribly overrated and I am happy I didn't go... but I wish someone else would have.... My life has been terribly uneventful. I do feel like I am on a plateau though. Like something big is about to happen, I just don't know what side it is going to hit me from. I hope it's the good side. I realiozed the other day that I just want someone to hold my hand. Out of all of the needs in the world, that is the one I want met first. Hold my hand. How gay and girly does that sound? Oh well, it's true I am a girl. I am realy excited that Star Wars is coming out in what... 2 days??!! Oh my christ above!!! Just call me Chejob Briian. That is my Star Wars name after all. I cannot wait. So excited. I even have a cape just like Amidala's. Yes, I am just that sad. I am ready for this school year to end. I have senioritis already and I am only a sophomore. That is not a good thing. But, I have given up. It doesn't matter. I am gonna have all A's anyway. So bite that highschool and future college!! I am sad that people who are falling for others and are seemingly perfect are being over looked. Not me personally I swear, I promise, but, I certain white tuxedo man... I wish that is perfect someone would come. I really think they could be the end. Pity they were friends first. I know how that goes. And I still carry that damn torch. I shouldn't still like him. Oh well, Andy you're a Star, in nobody's eyes but mine.

So ToDay wAs the DaY We weRe SuPposed to DiE?

So I am sitting in schoolright now. I could have had the day off. There was a scare of a shotting happening on this day. Pretty ridiculous I know. But, I am a good student. I came anyway. And to all of those who didn't... I am mad at you for leaving me with no one to talk to. Meanies.

Ta Day

Went out to Breakfast this morning. It was a good time. Brandon came to pick me up from my house a lil late. We went to Mc Donald's. What a delicious time. Suzie, Dan, Ian, Ryan, and Whitney were there. The kids played with the Rondald McDonald books and Suzie told some more hilaaiously racist jokes. Oh Suz. Well then we went to school and were a little late. Oh well. I can't say I missed... anything useful.
I got home and I was going to go visit my old teachers at Discovery with Justin, but I had to get insured on my car. Pity, I know it would have been a good time. But I did learn a lot about car insurance. I now consider myself a master and am going into buisness. Contact me if you are in the market for some grood life insurance.
I went out today and found that Phantom of the Opera came out on DVD. So of course I had to buy it. That is the biggest accomplishment of my day. And I am satisfied. I came home and watched it. I think I even got my brother to like it. A very big accomplishement indeed.
Question: Have you ever read something that made you want to cry? Not something terribly moving or anything. Just something you read and your heart kind of breaks? You find that you can't breathe and are gasping for air? I guess that happens. Maybe it's not sadness, just shock. Kind of like finding out that an ex-boyfriend actually has a new girlfriend. Only, I guess not really anything like that at all. Well, I guess that I really can't describe it. Well, it sucks to read something hurtful. So I think that I should stop writing in online journals altogether. All they do it cause a lil more heartache. But, damn, they are addicting. I guess I shall just try and never hurt anyone on my site. That will work.... yes.
On that note, I am tired. A little worn for wear. And a little more sad than I was. Well... happens to the best of us. Can't win all the time. In time it will pass. Ect, Ect. You know, just things to make myself feel better. *sigh* That looks like the saddest sigh ever. *sigh* it just the right color of heartache blue. Night all. May your lives be filled with the joy.......(you can finish that. What do you think i wanted to say?)

FreeDom wiTh A piEcE oF pLasTiC

I am awake, but I am not sure what day it is. Truly, don't care. I just know that there is going to be school... two and a half hours late!! Oh my gowd yes!! So that makes me pretty happy. I just wish I could cash in on all this extra time to sleep. But, these days, I just can't sleep for hours and hours like I used to. I prolly could have slept for... an entire day! Oh well... it happens.
Hmmmm.... it was an interesting day on monday, I think. No, just kidding. Mrs. Gray was really nice to me though. I had all my stuff for my project at home and we were only working on it for like a grand total of five minutes, she was really nice the entire time. She and I just kinda ended up talking for most of it. She's my favorite teacher.
The kids in my homeroom love to ask about sexual scenarios. I won't lie. But some of them are pretty funny/steamy. They asked questions like "what would you do if...?, How about her?", and so on. They were all waiting for one of them to come up with another question and one just came to me. "What if you were doin it and the girl just started cryin? Like full out bawlin. Not because it hurt, but because you were that good. So good she just cried." Ryan, bopy asked all the q's, was speechless. Like he just smiled really big and I think that he might have believe he actually did that. But, we'll never know. But his response was the best ever. "I would stop, run out and buy the biggest ring ever and ask her to marry me cause i would be so in love!" Oh, good answer. He's such a giver. But yea, that question, what would you do? And if you are a girl, pretend it's a man who cried. But serioulsy, what would you do?
So I guess monday was alright. That was until I came home and fell asleep on the couch. I woke up and my entire body just ached. And honestly I am still sick. It is the worst feeling in the world. I hate being sick!
Tuesday was seriously the best day of my life!! Okay, went to school which sucked and seemed to take forever. But I got to leave early to take my drivers test! I passed! Then I went to the BMV and took my written. Passed that too! I am now a licensed driver! So I came home and took the Valdez out on our first journey. God that was good. I went to Heidi's and picked her up and then I went and picked David up and we went to Steak n' Shake. Oh, goodtimes. Stephanie called on my way there and she was like are you still going and what time and I told her I was on my way and she wasn't gonna go, but when we got there, she called my cell phone and told us she was comin. So the entire gang came and we laughed so hard! So, David had to go to Drivers Ed so I took him and then me adn Heidi cruised. We went to Barne and Nobles. I had to pick up some sheet music. Then we went and waited in the Fricks parking lot for David to take his break. And there was this creepy Mexican guy who looked at us a lot! Meanwhile, me and heidi created sexual scenarios for every guy we had e'er known. Good, times, yes. Hehe. David never came and we went to another parking lot to get away from creepy Mexican guy. I took her to down town Mishawaka before we went back home and showed her where I used to live and go to school, and where Mrs. Wright lives. YEA, I still remember. Then we stopped by Davids on the way home. Today was my first day with that car "alone" I am so in love with it and the idea that I can just go wherever whenever. So call me Shakira. I don't care! I can just drive away in my car right now! Ha! well it's early yet, I think I'll lie down.

A WeEk in ReViEW

Well, this week. What is there to say? It was a nice one. Nothing terribly memorable. Oh wait, that's just cause my memory sucks. I guess there was some pretty good stuff that happend. Monday: Nothing really. I went to school. The weekend was far too short and I felt like complete 5hit. I won't lie. Tuesday: I woke up and laid in bed. I stared at the ceiling ang thought about my day ahead.I thought I was going to die. I couldn't bear the thought of trudging through. Weighing the pros and cons of not going I decided I needed the day off. After having food poisoning frof my dads turkey, I earned it. But I found out that I need human contact. That day really made me the most bored ever. But I did catch up on some well deserved sleep. I felt re-juvinated. Wednesday: Went back to school. People did notice that I hadn't been there and it did make me feel loved. That was really nice. I did feel better and had on okay kinda day. Heidi picked me up after school and we went out to MAcri's Deli. It was nice. We drove around, got stopped by a train and inverted CRABOOBS! It's a good word and perfect for any occasion, I love it personally. We went to the mall and I got three new pairs of pants. I really needed them. So, a good day. I really missed Heidi. We really need to so more things together. Thursday: I went to school and had to catch up on all the gold day stuff I missed, not much really. I talked to my english teacher during homeroom about my I-search project. Mrs. Gray is so nice and now my favorite teacher. I definately cried in front of her. And I am not a quick one to cry in front of people. I just.. was talking about my topic and was like, I'm afraid I'm gonna cry. So we went out in the hallway and I really went at it. I feel bad for making her deal with the uncomfortable situation as it were. But when my emotions run on the loose, I can't be heal accountable. So that night I went to the play to see Katie. I even wore a T-shirt that read, "I only came for Katie" But I also went to see, David, Andrew, Alix, Chris, Logan, Chavez, Tanya, Kristin,... Yea and that's pretty much it. Even though I knew pretty much that entire cast. Oh, well. That wasn't the best part thought, Matt dove me and we wanted to go out to eat after, so we went with Wren, Erin, Court and Suz met up with us at the best place ever.. HACIENDA!! Omg, we ate salsa and I laughed so frickin hard. That was really like the best time ever. I seriously thought that they were all hilarious and was so glad I went out with them. I hope matt had a good time. I know those aren't exactly his best friends, but he could enjoy himself, they were all aquaitned. Then I went home and statyed up until midnight doing a spanish project, thatnks again Mrs. Wright! Friday: It was a good day. It went by really quickly.But when we were in Choir they came over the PA and told every classroom to watch a special edition of PNN. We missed it of course b/c I was in choir and they are completely technologically handicapped. But what ya gonna do? It was all about how there is this threat about about a shooting on May the 10th, many a people are deciding to use that as a ship day. I myself am also thinking that wouldn't be a bad idea. Okay, so I had to work and couldn't get a ride home from Brandon, but that was okay. I laughed a lot on the bus anyway. I went to work, had a good time witht the girls, (I hadn't worked with Natalie in a long time and I won't get to at all this week either. And I really do miss talking to her, I was nice to catch up.) Then I went right over to heidi's house. We were going to fondu! WooT! So excited. Me, Heidi, Jessica, Betty, and Stephanie went. Steph drove. It was so much fun and our waiter ben was really nice. But Betty did throw a fork and hit jessica with it. It was funny and worrying at the same time. I did not know how to feel. But, it didn't last, we just had some good quality fun! I came home and got on the internet and talked to Courtney. She said somethings, and this got me curious. For further insight check my comment on Brandon's page. Man, never get buzzed and then decide to get online and talk to people. The two just do not mix. Saturday: I had to go to work in the morning. But I decided that I didn't want to go to the childrens play. I just, was not feelin it. Plus after talkin to Court I realized that I haven't hada high quality talk with her in a while and I wanted to do something with her. Unfortunately that didn't pan out. I fell asleep. And when I woke up my parents were like "hey, we're goin to Hacienda, You wanna come?" I of course loved to . I drove. So nice my dads car. I am gonna miss it! So we got there. Had some laughs, and my dad orders me my own margarita. He will make an alchoholic of me yet. He just wants a drinkin buddy. I feel bad for him. But then it gets better, he lets me drive home! WELL, we made it. Plus my mom and dad were way more smashed than me. I was technically a designated driver... sort of... by law... but not really... Oh well. Fell asleep. Sunday: Hmm... I woke up and went to work. I really like Mary Jo, she's really funny. She's also really nice. So working with her isn't bad. Rhyanna is pregnant and wants to name her baby Payton, no matter if it is a boy or girl. I say, more power to her. Hmmm..... I came home, practiced parallel parking cause my test is on tuesday.. I am excited/nervous. I just wanna pass and get my license. WooT. I watch the Bourne Identity and the Bourne Supremacy. They are tricky movies, but very good. I now have a better appreciation for Matt Damon and the sexiness of him. Yes..... I fell asleep. Woke up and watched the new family guy. God I missed that shoW!! I am so glad they brought it back. Cheers to that! So then I drove my mom to Meijer adn came home. I should start working on my I-search projectnow. I think my English teacher now expects something amazing from me. You know the whole crying thing... Well, I think I'll try and bug Brandon a lil first. Ask him how his weekend went. And the like. Good night to all and to all a happy week in review.